I Remember.... But I Wish I Didn't

I still remember the look on your face, the love i saw through your eyes, at ONE point in time, you told me you loved me, so why did you go?

The curves of your hands, i can still fill them, 

that silly scar you got from doing something really stupid. 

i remember you weren't much of a dancer, but you danced for me, why don't you do it anymore?

I remember your silly laugh, and how much you loved mines. 

I remember that ring you gave me, i swore i was gunna marry you someday

how funny how things change. 

i remember talking on the phone for hours, till the sun came up, 

back then we were so young, stuck on stupid and parked on dumb

i remember you playing in my hair, the smell of your clothes, that crooked smile of yours.... i still remember, i want to forget...but nevertheless i remember the pain because NOW

Your Reckless, 

 Never selfless, 

Ha, More like selfish 

Wish you could see in me, what i see in me

Or is it just me?

Your a bad idea, 

A bad man, i guess bad men do bad things

Momma was right, real love is worth the fight, 

but then i think, should you have to fight for real love? Shouldn't you just know?

Yea, i remember, Back in december, That winter before you went off to school,

Things were strange, you changed

i saw it in your eyes, your smile, 

i heard it in your voice

i felt it in your hugs and kisses,

the dark days came unexpectedly

i gave you whatever was left of me

over, and over and over again, 

but you just couldn't understand, 

you couldn't understand 

my love, my love for you was unconditional, even when you became someone knew. 

So this is me, this is me saying, your loss,

you will no longer be the boss of my thoughts, 

i will no longer, wait for you and have wishful thinking.

your an animal, it should be a sin the way you ripped my heart out, then gave it right back to me. 

you know your bold? and i realize your heart is NOTHING but cold. 

So dear boy, this is the end, then end of us, the end of you. 

And i know one day, ill look back at this, and laugh because you missed out on a MASTERPIECE. 

BUT THIS IS THE VERY FIRST PAGE, NOT WHERE THE STORY LINE ENDS. 

"I hope your, simply, happy"